I've been feeling so tired and stressed, things have been getting to me much more easily than they usually do. I feel like I'm going to break into pieces at any second. At least I have my friends. Now I just wish I had confirmation. Not the catholic kind, ha ha. I just mean, I wish I could confirm that my choices were the right ones. But I guess that's why it's life. We have to go through with our decisions no matter what the consequences.
I wonder why money has to be such a big deal. I know, it doesn't really have to be, but it is. Everyone needs money for the simplest things. Then there are the people who define everyone else by the money they have. Or their titles, or their ancestry. I just hate it. If only everyone could live in a peaceful place, where money wasn't an object of such fascination and controversy. To think, it's really only a meaningless slip of paper...
Rebecca had me doing some new things. I walked into work one day and she cringed, saying I looked quite awful. I laughed, but I know I did. Exhaustion does that to a person. With her help we managed to clean off the children's book case, which had gotten dirty due to a leaking tile in the ceiling, or something like that. We also took off a lot of books that hadn't sold and were older, laying out a table for a sale. They bought me a salad, which was sweet, and I chewed my green leaves contemplatively in silence.
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2 comments:
Elisabeth, you are really taking a risk by packing up and going to NY, and so of course you're going to feel lots of things, including major stress. (That was a long sentence:)) Do take care of yourself, including get some sleep or rest.
I am so excited for you to follow your dream. You know, with your family here, I'm sure if you don't wind up liking it there or you don't feel like it's what you really want to be doing, you could come back or go to Florida or somewhere else to pursue your dreams of becoming a writer! (Humor me:) You know I couldn't resist that!)
Now is the time to do these things. That's all my saying. Do it while you can. Do it while you are young and not tied down to anything.
Have a great week! Hang in there.
Thanks Melissa, that's really encouraging. I was actually planning on going to FL if NY didn't work out and buying a sailboat to live on for a while. Wouldn't be too hard, I know a lot of people on boats, plus I like the ocean. Your belief in me is really good to hear.
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