Wednesday, Thursday...

On Wednesday I went to school, and then to Areopagitica. Thankfully I didn't have to walk, because my dear dad picked me up and dropped me off. Once again, there were books to clean, covers to repair. I find that it gives me time to reflect, which is a good thing since there's rarely time to do that anymore. Sometimes these thoughts make me sad, because I can stumble on things I can't change, like how my best friend hates herself. Other times I think about the future, and i'm both excited and afraid. We all have to leap sometime; I guess i'm just taking quite a big leap very soon.

I am very excited though, because the other night Julie and I were talking and she decided she wants to move to New York with me. I was ecstatic; I had been so heartbroken about having to leave my very best friend right when we'd become our closest. Since then, we've been planning when and how this will all happen. People are skeptical, but I just shrug them off and smile. I am not the kind of girl to go into things without a plan. I have contacted a shopper at Mad4Mod who lives in NY and told me to call him to hang out when I was in town; I have a friend living in Queens; my mom has a friend named Helen, who she has been talking to about my situation. I have been looking at the cheapest rent, browsing jobs, readying myself for the move.

Last night I couldn't sleep, so I told Rebecca that I was going to stay home and try to sleep a bit. But, I told her, i'd come in on Saturday to help around the store to make up for it. Unfortunately sleep has been hard to come by lately, and over the counter drugs don't touch me at all. I went into Mad4Mod, where I haven't been for a while, and Lara gave me a big hug and a huge smile right when I walked in. She updated me on the store gossip, telling me how they all missed my presence, and I filled her in on the new plans about NY. It was so nice seeing her again, she's just so full of fun and energy. I'm sitting here nodding off, so I think i'll try to take a nap, like my snoring father is doing on the couch opposite from me. Ta ta for now!